Deployment around the corner this is the second time we have had to prepare for one of these nasty D words. With the deployment comes a lot of thought and conversation between a soldier and his spouse. The conversation that leaves me in tears and telling him "YOU HAVE TO COME BACK TO ME!" No one wants to think about the "what ifs" but what if the worst case happens and you are unsure of your soldiers last wishes, what he wants for his kids and so on. So the conversation needs to be done.
We have the talk about injuries if he came back with less limbs, or more severe he wanted to have the reassurance I would stand by him no matter what. One of the hardest things we talked about was him giving me the "say" in his Will if he was on life support I would be the one to determine if the doctors would "pull the plug" This one was hard for me to even think of because he would be alive right in front of me but reliant on a machine. I told him I don't know if I could tell the doctors to take you off support. He told me all choked up if it was the only thing keeping him alive then somehow I would have to find the strength but it would be okay.
There are so many soldiers who deploy and come home with stories to tell but then there are those who die as heroes in a war. Deployment was something we talked about before joining the military. Making sure this is something we could both handle. Mike has told me several times through the years "I train so I can deploy!" He trains hard and he tells me he is ready to deploy and actually do what he is trained to do. Also wants to have a ribbon on his dress blues, something he can be proud of. Its a man thing I think. ha ha.
Through training they have several classes. A few weeks ago he had a class on "being captured" I cant talk details on this conversation but to sit down and have that conversation of my soldier being captured and things done to him to release information is beyond scary. I asked him how he deals with the thought of these things and its like talking to a robot when it comes to military. The soldiers are so trained that he talks about what he would do professionally and doesn't show any motion behind his words.
Before a deployment the soldiers take their "Hero picture" which is a picture the media would use if the soldiers were to die in war. I remember the first time he came home and told me he took his "Hero picture" I worry how that makes a soldier feel, but then again as Mike would say it comes with the territory. Also a Will is made, Life Insurance is set, and we were to make a "family plan" just in case the worst was to happen.
This conversations may seem crazy to non military members and families but it is necessary. We pray, and plan for the best but prepare for the worst. Before a deployment this kind of talk happens more so then not. Its talks like these I think "hmmm did I really give this a lot of thought before I agreed to the military life? Can I change my mind?" ha ha. On the other hand there is something so honorable, heroic and sexy about a man putting on his uniform and doing what needs to be done. I'm proud of my soldier and know he is ready, now if only I were ready. ha ha.
No comments:
Post a Comment